starting out...

i've never imagine life can be so ..... fast changing. i love people even if they dont really love me. i am surrounded with people who are opinionated, people who dont really understand the meaning of life, those who are so closed minded or can be somebody really self-absorbed. i dunno what i am but i know that i can be better. being self righteous will never make things right. we have to learn how to adjust, make things feel lighter and i think NOW is the time to do such changes. i am a victim of stubborness, guilty of bad behavior and disrespecting people and their feelings. but i am just human. i live to be better, i will live to become stronger.

i have a lot of concerns. my concerns are my friends, my family... my son most especially. i have done a lot of mistakes. i have plenty of short-comings, but i have served and loved truthfully and honestly. i know, i shud stand up and make things right. i know that love is something you should never take for granted.

this blog will show the world how much i will change. how much my life means a lot to me because i have somebody to share this with. i have somebody that will make me move on. someone who deserves all the love in the world yet he dont know that yet but he will experience suffering and pain and plenty of life changing situations that i would make things clearer. you have to absorb then adjust... this is for you my son.

my love for you will make you a better person. i can say that this will make me understand the meaning of life. i dunno what to say really but you know there's is a a lot of things that should be carried in your heart and soul all throughout the stages in your life. it chooses your path to take, you'd know that life is all about decisions, whether it is wrong or right.... it makes you whole and will make you a stronger person. i love my life. i dont want to make mistakes but when it happens, it happens because there is a reason. all i want is not to hurt anybody. no matter how much i want to keep my friends and no matter how long i keep them they will always come and go... but i will be there for them no matter what....

to my loved one. i will always thnk about you... everyday... you have made me feel complete... i want it to stay like that even if i know it wouldnt be the same as before. i want you to be happy and successful. thats all that i want to happen.. thanks for everything. you have seen my worst and what was best of my. im sorry for all that i have done. but i know it wouldnt come to this end if it werent for me. i love you still and i will forever cherish the moments where i heard your thots or the help that you have given me. i will always remember how happy you made me become and how much i appreciate the love that you have still for my son. i hope at least both of you can be friends because i will be glad to have you influence my son in how you are and in your views in life because i know that you are a great person... i have always adored that in you... i hope i will change and learn my lesson. thank you for that....

ok enuf being EMO... :) now lets all be happy... :)